Anger and Revenge!


Sitting here on the laptop with a cup of green tea to sooth my mind, I just can’t figure out what had happened to me in the past few days. I m juggling myself to come up and write, have things in my mind to talk about but I don’t want to and I really don’t get that why I don’t. I’m visiting blogs, read what people are sharing that is coming up in their lives and what is happening out there around them. It’s not that I’m dead and that nothing is happening around me. Infact there is much more in my life than I can think of; loads of changes are going on within me and around me as well. Im looking at boxes of different sizes all piled up carrying my whole life within them, my childhood, my teenage and beyond that as well. I’m packing myself for not sure how long and when it will be the time to unpack is still unknown.



I have been pondering for days on what is with everything around me and within me. M I taking some sort of revenge from myself or is it just another part of the year Ill be passing by when the days get longer and the nights shorter. The time when you feel you have nothing worthy enough to think of or to do. You feel constipated regarding your thoughts, because the only thing that is working in your mind is emptiness. I’m so easily agitated and display utmost stupidity on the slightest injection of nuisance. I burp out all fungi type thoughts that were cultivated within me somewhere, from all the deepest darkest shady areas of my soul. And then the worse happens I regret what I have said and done, I’m immersed in that slimy fluid of guilt. The kind that resembles the quality of quicksand, the more you move the more you descend. The devilish side of your brain celebrates this event and takes you in the dungeon of doom where all of what you can think of is terrifying, filled with regret and guilt. The way you felt before of what happened is nothing infront of what will happen next. The wise don’t say it like this that“Nothing hurts more than words coming out from someone’s mouth”. Plenty of times I have seen people saying things out of rage which they don’t even mean. The thoughts that are buried inside them are instantly dug out and are tossed on the victims face without the notice of the perpetrator.

I have seen people fighting over the stupidest things on roads, streets, malls even in Masajid. Things that have no meaning what so ever but those who have a taste for anger enjoy every bit of it. They enjoy the flavor of humiliating someone, they take pleasure in announcing it to everyone how much tough time they had given to someone at a bus stand. Going through a similar article on a friend’s blog I share the same views as he does. Sometimes you witness something bad happening in public but you feel your hands are just held back by a force, often I have felt the same magnetic force to slap and beat someone really hard who was standing in public and was presenting a one man show of his wealth and power to a person of less affluence, whether it was his mistake or not only the poor has to suffer. Doesn’t matter if the rule is broken by a Toyota Corolla or a W11 the price is paid by W11.

Often have I noticed that men don’t spare someone when they are mad at them. And they regret it later on. They must do, but there egoistic companion keeps reassuring them that nothing has gone wrong, it’s not a big deal this happens to everyone you’re not the only one, what else could you have done that stupid rickshaw driver wasn’t giving you the way. People say they have temper issues, but I say why they (including myself) keep it prevailing, why don’t we work on it, why don’t we sort out the issues that are accumulating within us. So that if and if we go through such a time we don’t bulge with anger rather we hold on to that patience which is needed just to pass those few minutes as after that the heat that is generated within yourself for pressing down that lava begins to serenade your ears.

We not just I it’s We who need the power to overcome this devil within us who enjoys and celebrates the festival of anger and revenge. Feasting over our emotions filled with guilt and regret. I guess it’s time now that we should put him to a fast!

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11 thoughts on “Anger and Revenge!

  1. REHAN says:

    A human mind can never get Empty .. thats our obvious human pshychy that we some how say ke we are not thinking anything .

    There are people who are on Top .. progressed one .. what is the key of there Success ?

    they never get them self indeldge in tiny problems as per this Anger thing .. they set there goals and consider more then there own Anger and even judgments .

    and Anger it some how then even help us .. u will know ur self better at others when u are in anger .

  2. Sana says:

    I agree with your first point. Emptiness can never prevail, the thought that tells you that your mind is empty is indeed generated in your mind. Sounds jumblish, but true!
    As for the people who have made something out of themselves then yes they do teach themselves a certain amount of rules that help them achieve what they want. Rules that are either common, historical or created on their own.
    As for your last point, anger being able to help someone is a bit un-understandable for me. I would love to hear what you really meant by that 🙂

  3. REHAN says:

    You want a true judgment about you from a Friend of yours ?.. u really want to see what you are for them .. Bring them in anger with choice but not by accident .

    yet here .. what happen ? they say I am are very Friendly .. ahh i am very Chilled .. ahh I am this I am that .. who tolled what u are ? .. YOU ? .. you are not your judge .. you cant be .

    This anger is something that can drive some one to the level where you could then explore Your real self behalf of others .

    Mene is Anger wali trick se bare bare jhoto ke jhot un ke samne afsha kar diye . mere liye to ye positive hey .. helped me some how or .. should I go for Anger management instead ?

  4. Haris Gulzar says:

    Thats so true. Why don't we work on ourselves. Why do we let anger take over us for something we regret later. And I so agree with you, the price is always paid by W11. I have witnessed it again and this time it was even worse.

    Anger is definitely our worst enemy. The destruction that our anger makes is double the positivity our calmness can make. Only if we could control our anger…

    And by the way, you started with saying that you have lots to say but you don't want to, but you still come with such an excellent and a lengthy post :-P. Keep up the good work

  5. jolly says:

    Easier said than done, but then choice is ours. Anger does more harm to the self than to any one else.
    We may not control external circumstances but can help OURSELVES so as to make our own life better.
    I can say this because each time i've behaved rudely with my mom over a fight…i end up feeling sooooo guilty that nothing compensates for it. So its better to take small steps & over come it than die with guilt in your heart.
    G8 post.Thx.

  6. Sana says:

    @Rehan: Now that can be spooky at times irritating your own friends just to get things about urself out from them :O that can be heart breaking as well better let them inside then out. But then as you said you have managed to figure out alot of things with the help of your anger, yet again the point is that “Excess of anything is bad” 😉

    @Meher: yeah I can agree with you, coz I have often seen people going through this state, but it happens at the oddest of times and often in the worst of a situation.

    @Haris: Yeah my post was generated right after I read ur post, and it happens just like it happened to you, you dont have the mood to sit and write but once u start, you dont know where exactly to stop because your brain keeps on feeding the words and your hands keep on typing 😉

    @Jolly: I agree I have misbehaved with my Mom and elder Sister plenty of times and have badly regretted that later on, and every time I did that I promised never to do that again but than this evil mind makes me do the rubbish again 😦 but now I have seriously taken a note against it 😀 And yeah Welcome to my blog Jolly 😀

    @Anon: Not necessarily..!

  7. asads says:

    Anger is probably sumthing which will always result in loss…If not the one which is apparent , may be one which cant be seen..but felt…& yes..its a tough ..tough n tough thing..to avoid…

    (one way to avoid , which I am practicing is keeping in mind the importance of “Haqooq ul Ibad” and also refreshing the purpose of existence of human beings.. i.e; being human..This at least helps me 2 out of 10 time… and its better as compared to 0)

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