Ay ALLAH tera shukar!

You know it’s like one of those days when it feels that one of your silent, most needed prayer has been heard….I was really worried about something for like weeks and I couldnt think of anyway in which i could manage something that can make the situation a little better.
It was today just after I said my salams for the Jumah prayer, said my dua and as soon as I stood up there rang the phone bell and I got to hear the good news =) Sometimes HE tend to process prayers really fast =P

Thank you Allah Mian =)


LIES all around.

Why is that when you really want to live your life, nobody wants that. Why is that when you really drag yourself out of something, they drive you back into it. Why is that when you LIE to someone about something, they pretend to become Priests. Why is that you get to know your reality but when its time for them to figure out what the truth is, it all becomes a LIE. Why is that life is made like a living hell just for their own namesake.
I have spend my life all this time just by my own, nobody has been there holding up my finger and walk me down these stairs except for the Almighty who OWNS me by all means, my parents have indigenously spent hours of efforts just to make me a normal, confident, and self esteemed human being , a person who can believe in herself, who knows what she is thinking, who knows what she is seeing, and who knows when to judge someone.

coz I aint no priest,
I aint no saint,
I’m just a piece of flesh
thats just who I am. . .

I have my lies and I have my truths within, neither am I questioning those who have lied to me all this time for a dozen rather a bundle of things neither am I going to allow someone to question me for something I have said or done. I have had regrets in my life and I still do, and no matter who ever comes in my life I will carry my own piece of shit because that would be what I have done.

My life does linger on the edge of hope and despair if that is what you want to listen and that is just because I did not make the right decision at the right time.

The Admission Drive..

Yes Im waiting and waiting, searching, going through the newspaper everyday, surfing the internet checking out on the website, and waiting for the admissions to open and hopefully that is going to happen as soon as May starts, though enrollments in most of the universities has started but not yet in those where im waiting to apply. So all you karachiites please help me go through this period as ill be needing all sorts of advice as in where to apply, where to look for the forms and how to arrange all my documents.
Ok so now I know most of you would be laughing at the thought coz m making a fuss out of a small thing, getting an admission wouldnt be that hard, I seem to think that too but for me it is going to be a little hard, because having little or rather no information about these matters. Back there everything was based on merit you submit your result cards and wait to get a call, you successfully get a call in a week your in and if you dont your out 😛 but the case is always yes 😉 Alryt so I know here the scene is almost the same u get the forms pay the fee, wait for the tests, try to pass them, give the interview and wait for the nerving list that could make ur life or ruin it in some cases :S So I will be needing help regarding what kinda documents should I arrange before hand.
I already have arranged all my certificates of SSC-HSSC got them attested as well and some extra stuff needed along with that. So question here is will I be needing any Domicile or something like that for the admission coz the certificates are ofcourse of Federal Board and are Issued through a foreign school? So will they place me in as a foreign student or a regular one?
Then comes the case of the Admission tests! Im applying for BS(MS) in both SZABIST and Bahria. And im picking up Journalism as a Major, but according to the current programs offered by SZABIST they kinda have changed what they were providing the previous year, so my personal preference would be getting into Bahria and the Majors over their would be Journalism and Sociology. I will be grateful if any of the current or previous SZABISTians or Bahria-ites help me out on this coz I certainly dont want to waste any more time Im f**** up at home and want to study and just work on something worthy enough and make myself a human again…bus bohat hogae yaar had hogae ab tu 😦
And yes help regarding the admission test materials would be highly appreciated as im point blank as in what to look after and what to work on as I have no clue what so ever will be coming in these damn tests…seriously help me out on this for what should I be studying right now, anything specific like vocab or essay writing or anything just let me know if u ppl can 🙂
And in the end will be needing prayers of those who cant help me in this regard coz ur prayers will be all the help that I will need 🙂 and yes please tell me that im taking extra tension and that it will all go on smoothly InshAllah it will surely give me a moral boost.