I say I’m a Failure


Fixed on my favorite spot.
Time: 5:05am
Condition: Thoughtful


Sinking on this half lit sofa in my Lounge I just keep staring on this blank page infront of me for moments before I realize whats meant to be scribbled on it. Listening to the Call to Prayer in complete abyss, where the birds are the only beings busy in their Praises for the Lord Almighty. I recollect myself, my thoughts, memories, visions, inspirations, and all that has been a part of my life, a part of me for years now and words crawl out from my mouth “M I a complete Failure?”. Knowing there isnt anyone here to break this moment of sheer re-connection then myself. I can see the shadow of my hand following the path of my palm which is busy pinning down the thoughts onto the paper.The shadow of reality is the shadow of truth, atleast thats how I try and console myself. Saying “M I a Complete Failure” doesnt really make me one, does it? If I’m a failure at something I soon realize the 2 basic rules about it, either:

  1. You’re not meant for it.
  2. You’re just not putting the right portion of yourself in it.

If it wasnt for the hardwork that pays off, their would have been just Winning and Losing, Chapter closed. Period. 
The value of Hope, Fate and Faith would have been brought to ground Zero by then. As much as the shadow of reality keeps a track of you, it comes running behind you. The transformation lets you know your input and the extra effort needed, till the point where you cant see it, neither ahead nor behind. The point when you conquer your shadow is the point of Supreme Success. Though a shadow running ahead of you is the one that isnt meant for you when you start getting Mirages amidst your sufferings. Running after such a shadow is a complete waste of time. Just like Success comes from within, So does Failure. If we Own our Success we should be able to Own our Failures as well. But if that what comes from inside, isnt Sane enough, then you must be a Complete Failure.

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5 thoughts on “I say I’m a Failure

  1. mahmud faisal says:

    Subhanallah…

    this is a great great thinking.. and this is the 'Taqdir' belief of a Muslim. You must accept the success and failure as well. The efforts are never in vein. You must get something out of it.

    And in another aspect, while you are not succeeded, you should think that you are not worthy for it, may be you need to work a little more harder.

    Finally, there is nothing as “COMPLETE FAILURE”… many a times, I used to think like that. But later I felt, if I were a CF, then I could never had a blog even, I would never have some sweet friends, some sweet creativity in this world… So, all I need to do, is to be cool and think 🙂

    wrote so much, just my feelings ….
    sweet post, Sana. thanks! :

  2. Sana says:

    Thanks everyone for dropping by and posting your share of thoughts on this topic 🙂 Im truly glad to read your input.

    @Salman: Bachay nothing to worry about, just a few points to share 🙂

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