Its about time that I actually came up and conversed with you. I feel sick of coming over to you in that darkest corner. It’s time we confront each other in the hard, unsympathetic day light. I need to see all that scars you have imposed on me all this time; for I want to see how deep they have seeped and how bad do I look with all those bruises on my self. I want to see myself in that bright day light, that I have longed to see for so long. I need the courage to live in the reality, for your fantasies have given me nothing more then those sickening feeling of being left out, out of place and more like a frantic ‘out of order’ machine, who knows nothing about what the hell it has to do with that dime.
Dear Me, I apologize for not listening to you that often, but you need to learn to get on along without me, for it’s getting hard for me to balance the two extremes of my life. Your pressure is driving me nuts, and it isnt far away that Ill end up being an insomniac, anorexic, diseased,
omnipotent piece of sludge.
Ill keep on writing to you from time to time for I know no matter how far off I try and run away from you, I don’t have to run back to come back to you. I can just stop and look into myself to find you there in the deepest darkest corner, where you’l always be.
With great love,