You are all I desire.


Sound of Whitney Houston soothes my mind right now,’Over and over I look in your eyes, you are all I desire, you have captured me’. Desiring for something, getting something and then the phase of actually losing something, too clichéd, right? Human nature, can’t deny it, won’t accept it either. Desire is that very spark in your life that makes your days shorter and nights longer. Desiring for anything in this world makes the wait for attaining it, undesirable; more likely, unbearable. You don’t know what you’re running after, you don’t know how you’re going to get it, but all you know at the back of your mind somewhere in the silhouette of desire, that you’re going to get it.

I’ve desired for innumerable things in my life, some achieved, some forgotten and the rest lost. I regretted my failures but they were soon forgotten. I celebrated at my achievements and later on got bored of them, still I never managed to get rid of them. I never could. Why so? I pretty much can’t explain. Somewhere between the odds, may be I have the desire to hold on. Hold on to things that I have achieved with such hardships and pleasure. The moment someone, somehow loses the desire to hold on to things he/she has always wanted to have, is the time when things start to part ways. The desire to struggle for your hobby, academic achievement, or either trying to hold on to your marriage or a relationship. Don’t let those things that were once a huge part of your life, the ones that were clicking on your mind and nerves 24/7 slip away from you that easily. It takes a loser to understand the value and worth of winning and not the winner itself. You might have lost it once, but may be your desire to hold on makes it worth working for. Don’t follow the lead to your own loss. Situation might be that your unable to face your own misery, gets difficult to collect regrets and even harder to bury the sorrows. If only I could predict the amount of damage it brings, I would’ve tried to persuade each one of you to never to let go of something or someone you have truly worked for. Karma, no doubt is a bitch but you do have to become an even bigger one.

All I desire for now, is to hold on to everything that I have around me. I’ll hold on to, for now I fear the regret of losing. I fear of losing the biggest parts of my life.

Love has no desire but to fulfill itself.  The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but to hold hands.

~Alexandra Penney